I’m turning.
40.
This year.
I’m turning forty this year. While I’ve always said that age is just a number, you’re only as old as you feel, I’ll grow old gracefully damn it, blah, blah, blah…I think I’m heading toward it being more difficult than I’d care for it to be. Not that I feel old. I just. Don’t feel very accomplished for being that age. I’m certainly not where I thought I would be; but also-I certainly can not fathom having a fifteen year old {because I was certain I would have children by the time I was twenty five}. I’m not saying that I don’t like where I am, I do, really. It’s just not where I wanted to be.
And I’m not talking about being married with children. There are things I’ve wanted to learn, do, see. The truth is that I’ve become lazy. I’ve not actively set out with purpose to learn, do, see and I’ve spent the last few years chasing things and trying to grow things that maybe weren’t meant to be-at least not until I’ve grown the correct “thing:” me. So, I’m working on that.
I’d planned on unveiling a list of forty things I wanted to learn, do, see before I turn the big four-0 (in December) but in true Gina fashion, I’ve been lazy and haven’t put it together so I’ll share bits and pieces now and then and perhaps someday I’ll get it all tidied up and into a post for you to follow along if I haven’t already lost you {follow #dsg40before40}.
To start, I’m teaching myself to sew! With the help of Thom {only when I get so frustrated that I have to ask} and some very helpful tutorials I’m getting it-finally!
Here’s what I’ve accomplished so far. I couldn’t be more thrilled. Each piece has obvious flaws and imperfections but I finished them and I kept going. It’s all about practicing straight lines, y’all.
Never mind that he was actually supposed to have looked like the pattern I made. Hahaha. I still think he turned out kind of cute.
And? This!! I have a slight obsession with bags, and pouches, and storage containers of any kind. So imagine my elation with being able to sew my own. I could end this whole 40before40 right now and feel more accomplished that I have my entire life. I sewed this, you guys!
So. That’s where I’m at these days. Desperately seeking the girl I always wanted to be. What are you searching for?
Oh Id love to be able to sew. Ill be turning the big 30 soon.. well in 2015… and this has been on my mind too.. tackling some things before then. Im not definitely NOT where I thought I would be at this age and that is the toughest part of getting older. I don't mind the grey hairs and fine lines, but being unsuccessful eats at me.
I still haven't found what I'm searching for, but I think I am hot on its tail… (and let me be straight up honest and say: by looks alone, I thought you were my age)
Turning forty's terrible. But being forty's not bad. 🙂