Setting Goals, Making Lists, Living intentionally

When I was eighteen I had my life all planned out.  I’d finish college with a degree in history.  I’d find my dream job as a museum curator, get married, have children and then I’d just be a mom. Not lofty goals by any means but I had a plan in place and I started working on it.  As life is apt to do, plans changed.  I quit college and moved back home.  I started working and then went back to community college at night, this time with a different career goal in mind and finally, when I was thirty one I graduated.  Not with a degree in history though {business/HR}.  There wasn’t a dream job waiting for me- I stayed exactly where I was {and am, currently work-wise}.  At that time I was single, living alone, with not a prospect in sight.

Somewhere in there I think I lost my sense of wonder.  I worked to support myself.  I went to school to have that degree added to my resume {because at the end, I really didn’t want a business degree I just really, really wanted to be done with college}.  

Wash, rinse, repeat.  I’m stuck in the same cycle. Except, I don’t even have any goals.  I have lists upon lists of things I’d like to do but none of any worthwhile consequence. I feel passionless and and I wonder if this makes me small?  Closed minded?  Lazy?

I’ve begun to keep a notebook of things I’d like to do.  A bucket list, if you will.  Perhaps it will help me focus and begin to live intentionally.  I can’t find the notebook though; been looking for it for weeks.  I’m pretty sure number one includes clean up & get organized.

So here is a partial list of  things I mean to do:

build a fort {girly and soft.  a restful retreat}
spend a whole day reading in fort
mani, pedi, massage
return to Italy with Thom
relearn Italian
learn sign language
read the classics
watch every James Bond movie
write a novel
build and code a website
work from home
visit California
live in the same zip code as my family {must work on getting them to move to Ark!
learn to sew properly
learn to make and edit home videos
perfect French onion soup
get married and have a lovely wedding
get a tattoo
lose weight
start wearing lipstick/lipgloss again
find the perfect shade of red lipstick for me
make my own buttons
own my own business
be more creative
love myself better
buy a new car
plant a hydrangea bush

It’s a good start, I think.  What about you?  Do you have a bucket list?  How do you live intentionally?