Thoughts on Staying Afloat

I generally try to keep this space positive and upbeat and save the heavy stuff for personal journaling.  Yet, at times, I feel the need to explain my lack of posting.  I’m not the best at dealing with feeling overwhelmed and I tend to shut down and retreat until sunnier skies reappear.  I feel myself slipping into that mode again.  I’m feeling un-creative {is that a word?} bored, and just plain moody lately.  I try really hard not to be.  I don’t want to be difficult to live with.  I don’t want to be grouchy.

I’m so busy just trying to stay afloat here.  The drive to work {an hour each way}, work itself {impending audit has everyone on edge}, and bills, bills, bills {lord, will they EVER go away?} have me feeling as if I’m sinking.  Luckily, I have a partner who helps keep my head above…yet I really just keep thinking- is this the way it will always be?

Ugghh.  Downer post in the making.  Lets move on.  Some happy things I’ll try to focus on instead:

Tomorrow is my 15 year anniversary at work, or with the company, I should say.  I’ve been at my current location almost 5 years {since moving to Ark}.  I’m secretly hoping someone makes a big deal of it.  And, I’m hoping for cake- with a custard filling {laugh}.  Mostly, I’m looking forward to the gift certificate I know I’m getting {I open the mail at work, after all}.

Weekends have been lovely lately.  Two days off together are something of a rarity in retail even with an office job like mine. But, these last few -I’ve had off and it’s been lovely to have the break.

Last weekend, we slept in and stayed up late.  We spent a few hours sunbathing on the lower deck, reading and listening to the radio and generally finding it amazing that more people weren’t out enjoying the lake.

We drove into town to give the car a bath.  I think someone was trying to tell me something:

I stalked Hop with the camera for a bit…but he refuses to have his picture taken- unless he doesn’t know I’m taking his picture.  I was messing around with an old Ansco Shur Shot we have and he was curious as to what I was up to when I place it in front of him.  This shot is through the Shur shot lens.

I’m a couple days behind in my photo-a-day challenge but I’m hoping to catch up tomorrow.

So…that’s it, friends.  Just trying to stay afloat here.