It was an ordinary, everyday work moment this afternoon when suddenly my tear ducts kicked into gear and the tears began to flow. And flow. And flow. One simple statement of endearment from my favoite teller, Patsy, and a thought struck me harshly. I’m moving to Arkansas. It was a rough afternoon as the thought began to sink in. I’m really doing this. I guess I’ve been so busy doing the prep that I hadn’t even really thought about it. I mean…sure, I thought about it. But really….did I really think about it? I’m not sure why I’m so emotional about it now, suddenly. This whole thing was my idea. I’m the one who decided…I’m the one who just announced it a couple of months ago, yet I’m just now starting to emote.
This doesn’t mean I’m having second thoughts…or backing out. Being with Thom is what I want. A channge is what I want. New experiences are what I’m longing for.
Then why the heck am I so emotional all of a sudden?
And then Mom noticed that I’d been crying…and she started crying. *sigh* auuuughhhh. I feel 18 again, on the eve of my move to M.S.U.
So…that’s what’s going on…what’s running through my mind. I have tons to pack. Tons of cleaning. A to-do list a mile long, and friends to see before the move. Be prepared for waterworks!
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Just wanted to say that I can relate on the waterworks front. Not so much on the move thing although a year from now I could be facing the same emotions. I can understand the wanting change and new experiences. I think it sounds exciting and scary all at the same time. Today was probably just more towards the scary side. Personally lately it seems like it would take far less than a move across country to bring on the waterworks with me. Guess that’s just how us girls tick. I think it’s not whether or not you HAVE emotional breakdowns, it’s just whether or not you ADMIT to having them. Hope tomorrow the excitement of the big move comes back and you’re feeling better about it.
Take care,
Shawn 🙂
🙂 Thanks for the words of encouragement, Shawn…you’re right…it’s just how we roll…and I’ll feel better about it soon. In fact…I’m almost back to normal!
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Oh Gina,
First off tell your dad I said Happy B-day too!! I had my crying spell like that on the day of our graduation, and it also seemed to come out of nowhere!! I hadn’t been feeling particularly sad, I think it is just a moment of realization. Your fabulous wherever you are!!!!
Liz